Song currently on repeat....

A close friend gave me a cd recently. There are good songs on it, but this one strikes a strong cord and ends up on repeat while I'm just milling about the house. It is raining right now in Va Beach. The rain, the ocean, and getting away are all strong metaphors for me right now. Some people say a picture is worth a thousand words. It is true, but I also feel that a word, or a phrase can be worth a thousand thoughts, memories, and pictures of it's own. Rain. Ocean. Both bring up DECADES of sensory impressions of sight, sound, smells, touch, tastes, poems, emotions. Both are tied deeply to my earliest memories. I've always lived near an ocean, Pacific and Atlantic. I love to swim in the ocean, like the sea otters and sea lions in Monterey (really, that is what I feel like when I'm out there), making waves into roller coasters, or just floating with extremities fully extended when it is calm.


Into The Ocean
by Blue October

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)




I lent my son my shuffle for his school trip to DC recently. There is an eclectic mix of music on there as I listen to it while I run or other aerobic exercise. I added Boomtown Rats "I don't like Mondays" recently. My son sings it all the time now. He wants me to get the sheet music to play it on the piano. :-) So do I, but it isn't that easy. The one book I found that has it is no longer in print.